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Buying a duplex right now and it have about a half acre of extra land in the back yard. I’m curious if I could potentially build another house back there. Where do I go to find out if I’m allowed to do that?

Hey there stranger,
Ill be doing a hugh step in my life and will move to a new city completely alone without knowing somebody due to a job.
I would love to go through this journey with someone and share our days, struggels or anything really with each other.
Im 25 from germany, quite a nerd that is into fantasy, dnd, gaming in general, but i am also a cook and baker by heart, my last roomate thought i was gay at first... I admit I can hit those high notes in take on me and my stayin alive is on point. Sometimes i even want to sing the barbie while you should do the ken voice.
I love studio ghibli movies and they are a big reason for my artistic journey and even the cause of me learning to animate in blender.
I want the kind of love where we are best friends and the first person to talk each other when something is wrong, the kind of relstionship where we even think of each other while having a good time apart, all the small acts of love during the day and so on.
We will have a big dog called muffin or cupcake, there is no debating in that, but i am open to more pets or even kids when we're ready to settle.
I can not move the next 4 years so it will either be a long distance relationship (where i would still love to see each other at least monthly, depending on the distance) or youre willing to move somewhere close to munich.
Thank you for reading this and ill be happy to talk more in dms :)

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For sale is 300mm Ginsan Yanagiba made by Shigeki Tanaka. The condition is brand new and unused. It is a stainless knife with a well ground ura, steel that takes a great edge, and a very comfortable premium walnut handle.
I am selling it because I've no opportunity to use it. Purchased from Japanny for about $400 shipping and tax included. Willing to let this go for $320. I will take $20 off if you buy together with my Shigeki Tanaka 180mm Ginsan Deba or if you can take it off my hands by end of next week (6/3/23).
Thank you for looking.
Specifications: Knife Type: Yanagiba Steel Type: Silver Steel No.3 (Stain resistant steel) Blade Hardness: HRC 59-61 Blade Type: Single edged blade Blade Length: 300mm (11.8") Blade Height: 32mm (1.3") Blade Thickness: 3.2mm (0.126") Ferrule Material: Pakka wood Handle Material: Walnut Handle Length: 135mm (5.3") Weight: 200g (7.1 ounces)

Bought an entire used setup from a friend and the RJ12 cable from Fanatec CSL pedals to the DD wheelbase is way too short (like 1ft).
The Walmart 7ft RJ12 cable (phone cord) I bought did not work so I assume it must not be a "straight through" cable or of very poor quality.
Seems I cannot buy one direct from Fanatec either.
Can anyone give me an Amazon link to a cable that will work with the DD Pro to CSL pedals that is at least 5ft long (USA)? Huge thanks in advance!

Hello there currently reside in Colorado and had some questions pertaining to the more interesting gun laws here, the questions are as followed.
# 1. There is a ban on high capacity magazines can you buy these magazines online and have them shipped to your house or is that illegal... To be specific I want to buy the cmmg 22LR conversion kit for the AR-15 but it comes with 3, 25 round magazines, also it'd be nice to own 25 and 30 round magazines for my ruger 10/22
# 2. There is also a ban on binary triggers can I buy those online and if not can I go to another state and buy them and bring them to Colorado or is that illegal as well
# 3. Are there any rules/laws pertaining to the creation and or usage of 3D printed parts in the state of Colorado
# 4. It was suggested to me that I could buy things online and have them sent to a friend or family from another state where gun laws are less strict and they could send it to me through the mail is this bad and illegal or all right (nothing sent to family or friends would require FFL this would be Parts and magazines)
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If anything you've read here sounds like it the dumbest things that anyone could possibly ask in their entire lives
if that was your thought sorry just trying to learn the laws better and in return get a better understanding so I can continue collecting, building and having fun

My boyfriend (24M) and I (21F) have been together for over a year, and we’re super happy together. At least, I know I’m over the moon to be with him.
The thing is, I’m decently midsized to fat and he is very slim. I’ve been a bit overweight my whole life and it’s something I’ve struggled with a lot in terms of fatphobia, the way people treat me because of it, the way I see myself etc.
My boyfriend has a few overweight people in his family that has definitely instilled some subconscious fatphobia in him. He saw these family members go through some serious health scares that was partially due to their weight, so he has grown up to be much more health conscious, which I think makes total sense. He never imposes those biases on me but there are times where it just slips out and I notice.
I sometimes catch him staring at my stomach when we’re in bed together. I’ve noticed it often enough that I’ve honestly stopped wanting to be naked around him at all. I feel like it’s out of the ordinary of normal staring too, because I never catch him staring at other things like my boobs or my ass unintentionally, so the fact that I’ve noticed specifically my stomach kinda raises some alarm bells for me.
He’ll also say things on occasion that kinda hurt to hear, as a fat person. He’ll take his stomach fat and squish it and talk about how fat he’s gotten (even though we both know that’s not remotely true). I know he can be insecure too, but I can’t help but think about how he must see me if he thinks that this is fat.
I’m also pretty open about my fatness and my struggles with my weight and ED. When I talk about my experiences as a fat person, my boyfriend will often shut the conversation down quickly by saying “you’re not fat you’re so beautiful”. Of course I appreciate the sentiment but it bothers me the way he equates the word fat with ugly. In these moments, im not complaining about my size but im simply acknowledging my weight and how it has changed my experiences with others in life. Telling me im beautiful just doesn’t help imo.
These are just a few examples, but this is what I can distinctly remember hurts me that he does (I have a really shit memory) and I communicated that to him. We had a long talk about it and in the end he apologized, acknowledged those biases, and said he’ll reflect on how to start unlearning them.
I’m really happy with how that conversation went, but after some reflection, I’m wondering was I being unreasonable?? These really were small things and I’m not sure if I was overreacting just because it triggered my own insecurities. The only reason I spoke to him in the first place is because a couple of his friends made some really rude comments about my weight the first time I met them. My boyfriend wasn’t there when they said the comments and I didn’t tell him about the situation until recently. When I did, I felt like he didn’t understand how much it affected me to hear that, and I went on a whole rant about his friends’ fatphobia that then went into his internalized fatphobia.
Was I overreacting? Idk. Typing it out makes me feel even stupider about the whole thing. But it just all hurt my feelings.
And if I wasn’t overreacting how do I help my bf, and how does he help himself with unlearning the fatphobia?? He’s not able to see a therapist atm (weird complications with his current therapist) and idk how to even start helping him. It’s still a hard subject for the both of us to talk about considering we’re both kinda sensitive in our own ways to it.

Before you read this, I want to apologize if this comes across as scatter-brained. These thoughts have been building for years and only recently did I suddenly have the urge to rant about this.
I have struggled with my identity my entire life. My father is white, and my mother is Filipino. However, my dad is very ignorant of culture outside the US (in a bigoted way) and my mother only recently started to push me to learn Filipino culture (about two years ago, but I am 22).
I have tried to make Asian friends from similar ethnic backgrounds, but they either ignore me or are enamored with American culture so its hard to really absorb authentic Filipino/Asian experiences.
I attribute this to a few factors; my physical appearance and where I specifically grew up.
I have probably struggled with my physical appearance my entire life, from both family and strangers. My father is full white, and my mother is Filipino; my appearance resembles more of a Hispanic person rather than Asian. I used to joke that I can’t fit in among white people, Asians, or Hispanic people, but unfortunately this feels closer to reality every day. Being raised in Texas (and among my white grandparents) I have always felt looked down upon based upon my skin complexion. When I worked in fast food, I once had an elderly white man order me to stop taking his order and have my white coworker complete it instead. Hispanic people often walk up to me speaking to me in Spanish and being shocked I am Asian (though I find this more funny rather than offensive).
What isn’t funny is the amount of disdain I see from Asian people. When I tell Asian people I am Asian, they often deny me or tell me I’m Mexican/Cuban and I don’t know it. I was bullied by a Chinese kid in middle school because my skin was so dark, and he would often call me “cholo” and other derogatory names. However, the worst case came from an ex-girlfriend that I once loved unconditionally and had plans to marry. She told me one night that she wanted “full-blooded Korean children” in her future, and it destroyed me to be judged by someone I cared for so deeply for something I literally could not control. Additionally, her mom once told me that Filipinos have lots of genetic diseases when I had dinner at her parents place. These two traumatic experiences are some of the biggest reasons I have struggled with my identity.
I’m not stupid, I see how both Asian and western culture fetishize fair and pale skin. It is so frustrating that people ignore racism among Asian subgroups. I know Indians and (for lack of a better word) middle eastern people suffer from being called “not really Asian.”
I have tried trendy Asian haircuts/outfits, but there is only so much I can do. And the other day (this is the reason for my post) one of my work acquaintances told me I should stop “trying to look like an Asian” and it really got under my skin.
It sucks when people deny the race that you actually are, it feels like screaming at a brick wall to move and nothing happens. I think because I don’t look Asian I am excluded from Asian events at my college. Asian people are usually dry in conversation whereas I honestly have no issues with college kids of other races. Because of this, I feel locked out from experiencing a huge part of my identity simply because I do not “fit the look.”
Another factor included in this is my geographic location, Texas. Aside from having very few Filipino people in my exact region of Texas, I live in a house obsessed with American culture. I have nothing against it honestly, but when we eat hamburgers three days in a row for dinner, I can’t help but desire some sort of variety with my food. I do my best to eat more Filipino cuisine, but a lot of the filipino food in America is really greasy and it upsets my diet/stomach. Food aside, the Asian community in Texas is obsessed with American culture with a splash of eastern Asian influence. For example, they are obsessed with KPOP and anime to an extent that they are mimicking their fashion style and looks. Everyone is wearing Uniqlo, streetwear, and a pearl necklace/chain. Everyone is drinking Boba or going to raves and it is honestly so tiring.
Additionally, my father is pretty racist when it comes to Hispanics and black people, but most of his insults are based on the color of their skin. These insults honestly feel like they could apply to me and any racist person could direct these slurs to me any day.
Because of this, I have almost zero connection to my heritage or cultural identity. And it is so frustrating to see people connect with others just because they are Asian because whenever I try it I am shot down.
Has anyone else struggled with this? I feel trapped that I will never truly experience my culture due to my dysmorphia and where I live and it makes me very depressed.

I am looking forward for the summer and want to pick up another piece for my ever-increasing specialty (a smoother word for proprietary magazine stuff) gun collection and the G&G 308 looks especially sharp for that purpose. Can anyone tell something from experience about the G&G TR16 308 platform? I know the special capabilities of the G2H gearbox, so that isn't a question. Don't lecture me on that. Also, can I run an 11.1V LiPo with it? If it can run 11.1V, then I won't be buying any batteries as I have those already. The main question is about the difference in the front barrel portion as well as the stock. I know the grip on the SBR is thinner and could be more comfortable. The grips are probably interchangable, so the grip is not that big of a problem. I won't pick up any high-caps either (unless I do find some in my country), so are the magazines the same size as the SR-25/AR-10 mags? Needing to pick up some mag pouches as well as the mags are 40 bbs.

Title. I checked my ram usage and I saw steamwebhelper using 6.9GiB of RAM. This is not the furst time either. I know that program has been reported to have memory leaks repeatedly in the past on every os ever but my computer has barely been on for 23 hours and i swear it never did this to that extent before i moved to linux. most i remember seeing in windows was like 3 gigs once, but this is over twice that. luckily i have 32 gigs of ram so it didnt start making my computer start destroying itself, but i can imagine having it using that much ram for no reason until i restart steam is going to horribly screw up my day at some point. is there a way to make it not do that? or do i just need to close and reopen steam periodically? also, where could i file a bug report on this?

My wedding is coming up on July 15 and I can't wait to finally marry my best friend, but I can't envision how I'm going to look on the day...
For some context, I bought my dress this February and fell in love with it. It definitely is the dress, but I tried it on again today and it took awhile to zip up. The dress fit after I moved around, but this seemed to trigger my body dysmorphia and I instantly felt ugly. So now, when I try to envision how my hair, dress, makeup, etc will look on the day it just seems terrible in my head.
Have any other brides been through this? Unfortunately, I can't afford to buy another dress and will need to lose a bit in order to feel more comfortable on the day. I'm just having a very hard time imagining myself being beautiful on my wedding.
Can any past brides or brides to be provide any tips to move past this feeling?
TLDR; my wedding dress triggered my body dysmorphia and now I feel ugly. Any tips?

first would be the crowd.when the match will end the crowd for metro will be too much i will post a video later today to show it so if you have kids i would suggest leave early if possible.second is to bring atleast 200 to 300 rupees minimum as a water of bottle costs 100 or you can buy cups of water for 20 so it would be best to bring some money.also avoid bringing Bluetooth earphones and powebank if possible as you would have to pay 50 ruppes for them to keep in a locker as they are not allowed.if you have any more questions feel free to ask me.

I am looking for the middle schoole books (West Flanders region) in English to buy if available or can be made available based on special order.
I am mainly looking for the Mathematics subject plus also Science. These should be exact translation of the Dutch books. Let me know anybody has experience with this. Thanks for your time.

Earlier this year, I opened https://www.reluminate.gg/ with a purpose of bringing positivity to the scene by providing a fun environment with free coaching for all skill levels and all roles by verified, master-challenger players. I am a former Grandmaster support and this is my way of giving back to the community. I''d like to share this with summoner school and introduce some of the resources we offer that you may find helpful in your climb.
Everyone has a different play style and way of learning, likewise each coach has their own style of teaching and put sessions on a calendar weekly so you can find what suites you. From vod reviews to live game review, these are held in classroom like settings over discord where you can pop in and out, no formalities. Often, we'll have lectures on specific topics such as rune optimization, itemization or specific lane match ups.
We hold drills such as jungle clearing and bot lane 2v2 match ups. Here you'll get paired with an adc/sup of similar skill level and battle out until first blood then review those crucial first few minutes of the game.
On top of the free coaching we host custom in houses every Friday for both EU and NA. Sometimes they're 4fun others competitive. It's encouraged to ask advice during these games from higher elo players and get a chance to also work on team building.
We're still in the early stages of development and plan to roll out more fun league modes, ways to meet like minded people and duos, events, and tournaments in the future. I'm always open to suggestions. At the end of the day, the goal is to create something positive for the league community and light up the rift :)
Thanks and hope to see you there.
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I’m 37 weeks pregnant and struggling with my mental health due to the hormones, especially during this final trimester. And for the past week or two I’ve become obsessively jealous over my partner’s ex best friend (28f).
Rewind to 2019. At the time it’d only been a couple of years since I’d come out of a relationship where my ex had cheated on me with his best friend. I had a new partner, Sam, and things were going well, but we had been together a year or so when I noticed on Instagram that he had commented “😍” on a picture of his (then) best friend and colleague, Hannah.
I’d previously felt a bit uncomfortable about their relationship. She was undeniably gorgeous and he mentioned things like sleeping in the same bed as her when he stayed round hers once. But I challenged this and was very aware of my anxiety due to my past relationship.
Something about the emoji comment tipped me over the edge though. I was triggered and acted totally out of line, searching his phone for evidence that he had feelings for her.
What I found is that he was potentially once attracted to her, when they first met. It seemed like her been on the edge of trying to hook up with her, and had found her physically attractive. All of this was pieced together from somewhat flaky evidence, e.g. a friend had texted him saying “any updates on you and Hannah?” “we’ll find you a Hannah lookalike.” He’d also told a friend he’d sleep with her in a “shag, marry, cruise” scenario pitched at him - worth noting I don’t know who the marry person was.
What I think probably happened is that when they first met he was physically attracted to her and then perhaps as they got to know each other the attraction faded, to the point where they became just good friends. This is just me guessing as he’s always maintained he never had romantic feelings for her at all.
Unfortunately I didn’t do that kind of rationalisation at the time and I insisted he cut her out despite his protests that the comment was harmless and that he didn’t have feelings for her.
Anyway cut forward 3 years and we’re now pregnant with our first. I thought we’d worked through all of this and I’d got better - I’ve not felt as much anxiety or jealousy when he’s had female friends, we’ve been to couples therapy, I’ve reflected internally and talked with my partner about how wrong it was of me to pressure him to end the friendship. I’d even suggested he get back in touch with Hannah and explain what happened (which he chose not to).
But in the past couple of weeks pregnancy hormones have got my anxiety rocketing, and all of a sudden out of nowhere I felt that pang of jealousy, about Hannah again.
I’ve thought about her and the messages I saw two years ago nearly constantly, to the point where it’s distracting me from focusing on my own well-being, the pregnancy and upcoming birth of the baby. I’ve had to work so hard to stop myself taking his phone and checking it again.
I’ve just come here to get a bit of advice on how I can put these feelings aside. I’ve tried meditation, rationalising it, exercise to distract myself. Nothings worked. I’m devastated that what I thought had been progress and maturing on my part has seemingly disappeared. I’m anxious that I might spend the last few days of my pregnancy obsessing over something I know is so pointless. I’m also very worried about these obtrusive thoughts disrupting my labour, birth or first few weeks with my new baby.
I feel ashamed and ridiculous and I don’t really know what to do. Any advice much appreciated. Thank you in advance.
TL; DR: I’m 37 weeks pregnant and have become obsessively jealous with someone who I think my partner was attracted to a few years ago. I don’t know how to stop myself obsessing and move on from the jealousy which damaged an important friendship for him and has the potential to affect our relationship, my labour and birth, and precious first few experiences with my first baby.

Hey, I am making a group to-do list app, where you can invite others to contribute to your to-do list, How do I do this ??

Authors note: obviously I’m not attacking every creepy pasta with this, but you know the ones I’m talking about
Hello all, I have a terrifying experience! Recently I bought a copy of GTA V off of eBay, why I couldn’t be a normal human being and take a trip to GameStop, or order it off Amazon, or Walmart, or just download it from the PlayStation store or the steam market completely escapes me. I had to buy it from a random person off of eBay. Anyway I got the game and booted it up on my ps5. I’ve played the GTA V campaign at least 13 times and decided to go again. I loaded it up but when it flashed the art on the screen Micheal’s eyes were missing. “That’s what I get for getting a cracked copy.” I thought to myself. As it loaded into the very first robbery I noticed that the game told me to kill everybody and my simply force them into the back room. Well I figured good soldiers follow orders so I did so. When we came to the room with the money all the money was covered in blood. “Damn it! Can’t use it!” I thought. The rest of the mission played out normally. Then in the mission with Franklin and Lamar stealing the car I turned on the radio but instead of “bad news” it was just sounds of people screaming so I turned the radio off. Then on my screen popped up an eyeless man in the midst of static, I tried to push the home button but he laughed. “You cannot escape me now!” He yelled, I yelled back “Go fuck yourself!”, then I walked to my wall and pulled the plug on my PlayStation because ain’t no damn electro demon gonna haunt me.
Anyway that was my terrifying electro demon experience.

I (M,20) am an owner of a family flat in London
Back in the summer of 2022, I discussed and came to an agreement with my former flatmate (we’ll call her C). The terms are £220 a week for 40 weeks starting on the 19th of September 2022, meaning the move out date would be the 26th of June 2023. We agreed with the payment schedule of paying rent every 4 weeks.
As I considered her to be a close friend, I decided that a lodger agreement will not be needed as I trusted her enough to pay on time and in full.
Over the time she stayed at the flat, she’s asked me if she could stay for another year. Which I reluctantly said yes to at the time but informed her that she should still look for alternative properties as I might change my mind or rent out the entire flat.
Her boyfriend secured an internship for the summer, so on the 4th of January 2023, C and I agreed to extend her stay at the flat to 52 weeks instead of 40 weeks via WhatsApp, meaning the move out date will be on the 18th of September 2023.
On the 19th of February 2023, C and her boyfriend bought a dog. Prior to buying the dog, she asked me if it was alright to have the dog at the flat. I agreed to it as long as C and her boyfriend treated the flat with respect and made sure the flat was kept in good condition.
Between the dog arriving at the flat and C and her boyfriend moving out, there has been multiple occasions where they would leave dog faeces on the balcony for hours. Sometimes, even on the indoor floor, they would leave the dog’s urine on it. They would often put dog products, dog bowls and even fur trimmings on the dining table and the table in front of the tv, which are often used for eating food.
I’ve voiced my concerns to them, asking them to clean the faeces and overall keep the place tidy and clean. They cleaned the flat a few times, then continued to leave urine on the indoor floor, leave fur and dog products on tables used to eat.
Over time, I got irritated by this. So I decided that letting C and her boyfriend stay for another year will not be an option. On the 30th of April 2023, I kindly informed them that I will not be renting to them next year and will be renting to my close friends instead. At first, they asked me when they should move out, I said the agreed move out date, which is the 18th of September 2023.
After a few days, C tells me she will no longer be extending the agreement from 40 weeks to 52 weeks. I accepted this as I understand why she does not want to extend. She also informed me that she is actively looking for a new flat and will move in as soon as her and her boyfriend have found a new flat. I told her I understand.
Fast forward to the 22nd of May, C and her boyfriend informed me they have found a new flat and will be moving to the new flat on the 26th of May, giving me 4 days notice.
On the 23rd of May, I texted C regarding the original 40 week agreement. I explained that even though she will be moving out early, the original agreement is still in place and that the final 4 weeks of rent is still due to be paid.
She avoided replying to my text for a whole day. It was only until I asked her boyfriend to read her messages, she replied saying that she does not want to pay the final 4 weeks of rent. She explained that because I broke the agreement of letting her and her boyfriend stay for another year (even though the price or move out date had not been agreed), it meant that it was only fair that the final 4 weeks won’t be paid. She said that she assumed she wasn’t going to have to pay for the time she wasn’t living here as a ‘gesture’ because I’m ‘kicking’ them out.
However, if we’re counting, she will breaking 2 agreements, firstly, the extension of 12 weeks from 40 to 52 weeks as well as the original 40 week agreement.
I have been nothing but kind and calm to them. I simply do not want to live with them for another year. I explained that one of the reasons I do not want to live with them is because of how they are treating the apartment. To which she responded with that I should’ve expected it as I agreed to them having the dog at the flat.
I told her that the most I can do is to knock down one week of rent (originally £880) as well as deducting £15 from the amount due as she purchased a separate fob to enter the building for her boyfriend. Coming to the total of £645 (£660 for 3 weeks of rent).
As we are all students, she explained that because she had to pay 6 months upfront with her new flat, she cannot afford to pay the rent she owes. She told me she will speak to her parents and get back to me around the 29th of May (the date the rent is due).
Obviously, I regret not making her sign a lodger agreement but if she doesn’t pay me, what are my options?

This didn’t happen to me thankfully but I saw a post in a travel-related Facebook group where someone complained about shelling out extra money for a business class ticket on a flight only for there to be a couple with a baby that screamed the entire time and expressed that children shouldn’t be allowed in business class. The comments tore the poster apart saying well how are families expected to travel and babies have as much right to be there as adults, just wear noise canceling headphones, take a private jet if it bothers you that much and my favorite “I promise the parents were even more uncomfortable than you”.
It really made me appreciate this subreddit where we can rant about children being annoyances and not just get roasted in the comments. No I don’t hate ALL kids and no it’s not realistic to ban babies from eveywhere but when my experience is ruined by one I just want a safe space to rant about it!

Title pretty much says it, and I honestly hate that I am typing stuff out rn because I'm so tired of trying to explain my feelings in hopes of being understood and then not and cycling deeper into this exhaustion. To the point where here I am running on fumes and frustration simultaneously not wanting to do this but feeling I need to in hopes that someone at least understands me a little bit.
I just constantly find myself talking with people in group settings and typically I can be the life of the party despite my introversion. Mainly because I can be a push over too and I suck at getting conversations to go where I want them but I'm great at amplifying where other people want them to go lmao. I honestly thing my extroverted appearance is just a coping mechanism since I can't get what I want which is deep conversation and understanding of each other. So instead I settle for fun and laughter because I think I'm those group settings although we may not understand each other, if we all understand a comment made or understand a joke or funny remark there is still something powerful in play and that's nice. But when everyone's gone home(I typically find myself being the last person in hopes that as the group dwindles the conversation deepens, and sometimes it does but only because I play listener) I find myself sitting and wallowing by myself just wishing I could be understood.
Not to mention the moments when I do finally get what i want in terms of a more intimate conversation I tend to blow it being too talkative because its such a non commonality for me that I yearn for so much when I get my hands on it I ruin it. And then I get an even worse result than not being understood... Being misunderstood. It just sucks.
I'm so tired of not necessarily putting on a mask but definitely playing to the crowd, but those little bits are the only thing keeping me sane, it's just so much work for so little gain.
I just hope if anyone else feels this way you know you're not alone!
And if anyone else has any advice in combatting this I'm open ears... Please and thank you!