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Deepwoken: Volume 4
2023.03.31 17:28 YeBoiDeBoi Deepwoken: Volume 4
These white halls i wake up to every night haunt me for the various days to come. Every night I lay in bed, I awake to these white halls and hear the call from the Deep. The void is yearning for me, I'm in the centre of its heart.
Chapter 10: Voidwalker
Once again, in these pale halls. Nothing excites me anymore. I took this job earlier in my life at the age of 13, thinking I could have a chance at starting my shitty life over again and getting revenge on 'Them'. However, no 13-year-old could survive this catastrophe. Now two years later, I'm 15 and it's still no place where I can survive. They say I'm the youngest one to ever accept the contract, and they're probably not wrong. Most other kids my age would be learning all about the different places, what and what not to do. Finding their careers as knights, scholars, and sailors, not training to actively hunt people. While I'm here in these halls, I might as well look at the latest news, and take a moment to breathe. There's only one notable thing and it's that the infamous pirate ship, Beloved Zofia, had been sunken by the Central Authority. Happened just yesterday. Nothing else than that.
Voidwalkers don't usually get much respect from others. I don't blame them, we're mercenaries that are just knives to hire. But the thing with me is that I'm still too young to hunt for bounties. Most of these guys start at 18 but I'm still only 15. Ever since I got here, I've just been training under one of the captains as an apprentice. However, he did say that if I manage to beat him In a duel, they might just let me start taking bounties. Speaking of which, training starts in a few minutes.
Chapter 11: The Captain
The Captain training is called Quatermine. I look up to him. He's skilled with knives and other light weapons like handguns, rapiers, and even hand-to-hand combat. The other Captains say he's a monster with knives. It's said he took down a whole Etrean ship by himself. So it might be a while till i start taking bounties. "I'm ready when you are, Aloysius" He says. Compressing all my fibres and muscles in my leg, I release it all and explode. Leaping at him with speed, however not fast enough. Quatermine takes no time to move in a way that can redirect the momentum in my entire body with minimal effort. I tumble to the ground followed by a thud. Determination fills my soul and I start to draw strength from it. "Not good enough, Kanreshi. You're too predictable"
"Oh look! A bird!" I exclaim in an attempt to distract him. It doesn't work. This time he lunges at me. My parry game is on point with adrenaline surging throughout my body. As I parry, I try to land a cheeky counter with a low kick against his leg, attempting to sweep him off the floor. I manage to connect the kick and catch him off-guard knocking him over, but he's quick to think and agilely tilts over into a handstand and kicks me right in the face, ending the match. "Mr Aloysius Kanreshi, you're getting better. If I could, I'd let you take a job now, seeing as you managed to land a low kick on me. But rules are rules, so only until I give you victory, then you'll get your first job."
"Thanks, Quatermine. When do you think I'll be able to finally beat you in a duel?"
"If you keep up the pace, the closest you'll get to beating me is possibly one or two weeks from now. That's only if you do manage to keep your personal training together"
"Also, does the Knives of Eylis have any records of the guild, Goldency?"
"I believe so, why is that?"
"It's something personal i want to settle"
Chapter 12: Before The Contract
3-4 years ago, when i was 11-12. The village that i had lived in happily with my family was pillaged by raiders coming from the North. They hadn't slaughtered anyone and left food for the people. Everyone was confused as to why but nobody complained. Soon after they had got what they wanted, they left. Nobody knew why they had left a couple of scraps and hadn't thought much up it. However, i was the first to realise. After one guy was assaulted over the food, i understood why the raiders left scraps. They, not only want to pillage us but to turn us into inhumane animals. Their plan was to have everyone in the village fight over food and begin to wage wars for it.
As i turned 13, i was severely malnourished. Nothing but skin and bones was to show of me. The raiders come back each month to give us the scraps so they can watch a show between us. Even my own parents, once who I looked up to had already lost their sanity. I refused to let those pricks get what they want. That day i struck a vow against my own name. I'll wipe these fuckwits. For the sake my own self and the village.
i may be malnourished and lacking nutrients, however, my brain stays sturdy. The native plants become poisonous if you were to soak them in water overnight due to the outer membrane dissolving and releasing toxins from the inside. It's evolved to kill herbivores and vegetarians that eat it so that it dissolves in bodily fluids and poisons them from the inside. Boiling the poisoned overnight water and capturing the steam in a glass vial creates a poisonous gas grenade. This plant forms chemical bonds with the water making it harder for it to separate the poison and water apart. It also retains it's heat for a long time and stays as a gas just for enough time. It's easier for me to capture the gas and not die from the poisoning since Etreans have built up resistance to various poisons and acids. Now that i have my own gas grenade, I'll be able to stop the raiders from harming us.
They've moved into the village, allowing quick access to demoralise villagers and enslave them. Each night, they gather inside a room for a dinner party. With this information at hand, I was able to gas the entire gang with ease. After i checked everybody in the room has died, i began looking around. Suddenly, one of the raiders that were playing dead grabs me by the leg. How could he survive? Is he an Etrean as well? Turns out he was. He drew his sword out and was about to strike me down but then someone else had done it first before he did it to me. I thanked him but it turns out it was a Voidwalker just killing someone who had a bounty. I asked him how to be one of them, but he just said i shouldn't. I kept begging until he was fed up and told me. "A contract must be accepted by Eylis for you to begin. Tonight, you will dream. You will dream of a white hall and the call from the void will be ever so louder. Be careful, and make sure your motives are clear and your goal set. Then you may encounter The Punished Dreamer" He left as fast as he came.
i checked the bodies to see if I can grab whatever they stole back. One of the officer's notes said that this wasn't even the full raider gang. It was just a small platoon and if they weren't going to report back, more reinforcements will come to this place. The officer's note also said that they were hired by a guild called "Goldency" which didn't have enough manpower to they had to hire other people. As soon as I realised the fate of this village, I knew it was already gone. Not that there was anything left. But it was gone, lost forever.
That night, I did what the man told me to. To dream of a white hall, have clear motives and have my goal set. Then it happened, I woke up in a white hall in front of a lady. It could be her, Eylis the Punished Dreamer! It definitely was. Everything was a blur after that. The next day I woke at dawn in a new drippy uniform. The raiders hadn't reached here yet but it was definitely time to leave.
I take one last look back at my village. Before making my leave.
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2023.03.31 17:15 Far_Atmosphere9627 Lose weight or focus on building muscle
I'm 23m, 185 lbs/85 kg, 5'10''/178cm.
I am looking to lose weight especially since the last time I wanted to do the same I weight 10kg/22lbs less so I know my body can afford to. Ideally, I am hoping to reach 132lbs/60kg losing as much fat as possible; why that low? because I need a target number this time around and if 132 is difficult to reach I'll keep working.
However, should I also be lifting weights regularly to build biceps and triceps because looking at me there is a very slight difference between the circumference of my elbow-to-wrist area and elbow-to-shoulder area.
I am able to go to the gym only for 2 hours a day. Will focusing on muscle help? I figured it's better to lose as much fat as possible, get as skinny as possible for me, and then start anew to build muscle.
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2023.03.31 17:05 danarexasaurus My experience with ACDF of c4/5 and c5/6
I just figured I would share my experience with ACDF c4-6 for anyone looking to get this surgery. I got to the hospital at 5:30am and was sent to a bed for about an hour while they ran through my medical history, allergies, and what would be happening next. They put in my IV, which stung a bit but wasn’t too bad.
My neurosurgeon came in and put a mark on my neck where he would be working. He asked if I was nervous and I said I was a singer and was afraid to change or lose my voice forever. He said he would do his best and that the risk of that was pretty low. Then I met the anesthesiologist and we discussed my tendency to throw up after anesthesia. He placed a nausea patch by my ear and said it would last up to 3 days and to be careful taking it off and to wash my hands immediately after. Apparently, it can dilate your eyes if you somehow get it in them. When I was taken back to surgery, the anesthesiologist came to show me the special intubation kit he had for me because he heard I was a singer. I thought that was SO thoughtful and a testament to how great my neurosurgeon is. He shared that information with his colleague to make things better for me, which was unexpected! Someone came and gave me oxygen and asked me to breathe in a few times and said she was going to send me away for a while. She asked where I wanted to go, and I said Scotland. I don’t remember falling asleep but I was totally out. I woke up with a lot of people around me. It was hard to open my eyes for longer than a few seconds but I was trying really hard. I was not given a catheter during surgery so I really had to pee (due to the IV fluids). The surgery went well, with no surprises and very little blood loss. I laid there for probably an hour trying to wake up. A nurse came to ask about pain and I told her it was a 6 out of 10. I could talk better than I expected. She said she would put some meds in my IV and I felt a lot better within a few minutes. The pain was localized on my right shoulder area in the back near my spine. It felt like they’d pulled those muscles pretty tight. My throat was swollen and it hurt to swallow but not as much as I expected. My incision site and neck area didn’t hurt at all yet. They asked if I wanted to go home or stay the night. I preferred home so they took me to a discharge room. They gave me some apple juice and Graham crackers, which I ate very slowly. I didn’t feel nauseated but I was in quite a bit of pain. So the nurse asked if I wanted a pain pill. I waffled a bit because I knew If I took one I would probably throw up. However, I went for it and sure enough, I threw up like 3 times. The nurse apologized over and over and I told her it was fine and that it was my fault for doing something I knew would make me puke. I felt a lot better as far as nausea goes and I just dealt with the pain which was maybe a 5/10 at that point. Physical therapy came and took me to the bathroom and made me go up some stairs to see if I could use my legs. I did great and she cleared me to leave whenever I felt ready. I went in at 5:30 and by 12:30 I was home in my own bed. I definitely didn’t expect that! The first day was mostly me sleeping on my incline pillow in my bed. It was really hard to get comfortable in the soft collar because it’s in the way of any kind of pillow. I finally has some yogurt and tried a pain pill again. I think the yogurt coated my stomach because I didn’t throw that one up and have been able to take them ever since. I was a lot more comfortable after that first dose and was able to sleep. I had a good rest that night and felt even less pain on day 2. My throat was still sore and seemed to be swelling more and my voice sounds weird. Like when you get a bubble in your throat while talking. I’m guessing the swelling is pushing against my vocal cords. I’ve been up walking around the house and going up and downstairs. I removed my compression hose because they annoyed me and I thought the risk of clots is a lot lower if I’m up moving around. Today is day 3 and my throat feels the worst today and I’m still hacking up a bit of phlegm. I assume that’s from irritation in my lungs but idk. My neck feels way better today and the back of my neck/shoulder doesn’t hurt too bad today. The incision site feels tight today and hurts a bit when I chew food. I’m taking it very easy and my husband scolds me if I twist or do anything I shouldn’t. I woke up with my left arm completely asleep which is weird because I wasn’t laying on it so I must have pinched off blood somehow lying on an incline pillow. That arm is numb and tingly today. I suspect swelling is pressing on those nerves today. I’m not worried about it. So far; I can’t say the surgery fixed anything for me. My thumb has stopped switching so I’ll take that as a win! I think it’ll be a few more weeks before I can say definitively whether I feel better or not.
Feel free to comment if you have any questions about my experience. Sorry for any typos. I’m on drugs. Lol
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2023.03.31 17:04 dataweebo Top 20 most popular serialized manga series of r/manga 20 march - 26 march
2023.03.31 16:57 mom3Healthy Twitching
I am a woman (47) 5'6 165 pounds. I started with twitching in my calves that seems to have spread to my feet. sometimes I feel like my toe will jerk. I feel it mostly when I am laying down. There is also a tingling feeling like pins and needles but it doesn't hurt it almost feels warm. I have full sensation in my feet and legs and do not feel numb. I have occasional twitching in my upper arm. I do not believe that I have muscle weakness. I just spent several days(5) in Disney and walked all day. I was tired and my muscles hurt from all the walking the first few days but I did not have any issues actually walking. I walked between 10-18 thousand steps per day. I have tested my leg strength. I can stand on one leg I've done this for as long as 2 minutes without losing balance. While my leg does shake a bit as the time goes on I am able to maintain my balance and stay standing. I can jump with both feet on to a stair without holding on or losing my balance and can run up the stairs. I can walk on my toes and heels. I have always had occasional muscle twitching in my calves but This has been going on consistently since the end of February and I feel like it is getting worse. I also have some sciatic pain in my back which I contribute to gaining some weight. I thought maybe this was the reason for the spasms but then my arms started to twitch occasionally. My Doctor cannot see me till the middle of April. I know two people both woman who were diagnosed with ALS and have since passed away so when you google muscle twitching and that is the first result it triggers a lot of anxiety for me. I have been doing the strength tests I mentioned almost daily and I am wondering if that could make my twitching worse. I guess I am just looking for people who have similar experience and been ok because I will not be able to see my doctor for two weeks. Thank you.
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2023.03.31 16:55 splotchy_boi the translation of the Yuri character file.
If you found this note in a small wooden box with a heart on it, then *congratulations!* You are probably the first person to read this. I didn’t really plan on sharing this with anybody, but for some reason I think it’s exciting that somebody out there, a complete stranger, will come across this note and read my story. Someone I will never meet, sharing such a personal bond with me. I’m fascinated that either one of us could die - even as soon as tomorrow - with the other being completely clueless to the fact. To you, my entire life is within this note, and so I will live for as long as your memory can carry me. Writing this, I’m wondering if that makes you feel fascinated or violated. It’s so exciting.
I’m sorry if my story is a bit disorganized, but I’d like to get it down while it’s still fresh on my mind. First, I’ll tell you a little bit about myself. I’m a first-year college girl and have led, by most standards, a pretty unspectacular life up to this point. I grew up in an upper-middle class school district with decent teachers. I did track in middle school and some of high school, and I’ve had two boyfriends. Now, I’m studying for a career in occupational therapy, because I feel the field is undervalued and provides tremendous help to people.
I’m giving you this background because there’s this strange misconception that if you want to kill someone then you’re either sick in the head or you have anger management issues. But, it’s very apparent that I don’t fall into either of those categories. It’s true that most murder cases are in a domestic setting where someone loses control of their anger or something. But the thing is that those people kill under provocation, whether by a singular outburst or by a slow-burning series of misfortunes. Those people kill because in that brief moment, they want a specific someone, for a specific reason, to be hurt or killed.
What I’m talking about is wanting to kill someone for no specific reason, maybe just to see what it’s like. Do you ever get that? I wouldn’t know how others feel, because it’s not something I ever talked about. But I’ve been curious about what it’s like to kill someone ever since I was a child. Not killing anyone in particular, just a random person. It’s always just fascinated me that if I put my mind to it, I can approach anyone, and in five minutes they would be completely gone from this Earth.
But I’ve never done so for a couple of reasons. First of all, for most of my life it was logistically impossible for me to do it without getting caught. I only got my driver’s license a couple years ago, and even then, the preparations would take too much time, definitely stirring suspicion. It was only once I started college that I realized this was no longer an obstacle.
Another reason is that I was afraid of causing harm to too many people. You might laugh reading that, at how hypocritical it sounds. But, let me explain: Why should I feel bad about killing someone if they’re too dead to care? Who would I be feeling bad for? Contrarily, it’s the grief of the living that I’d rather not be responsible for. Because of this, I knew it would take a good deal of research before finding a suitable person to kill, and I’ve never had the means to do so - again, until I started college.
And now, having just experienced it, I’d say it was pretty satisfying in the end. Something I would try again? Probably not, since my curiosity has already been satisfied. It really wouldn’t be the same a second time.
But anyway, if by any chance you’re also curious to kill someone, then you’re welcome to take notes. :)
I started a hobby of people-watching soon after I entered college. People-watching is interesting to me because it’s taking one of the infinite extras in your life and turning them into a main character - without them knowing, of course. It’s so easy to forget that every single one of the hundreds of strangers you pass every day has a life story as deep and complex as your own. One thing I noticed about people-watching, and wanting to kill someone, is that you are in more constant awareness of this. When I find a person to observe, their story slowly becomes more clear to me over time, gaps being filled - it really is amazing.
I usually went to grocery stores on weekends and looked around in people’s shopping carts. If I saw something that interested me, I decided to observe the person for a little bit. Of course, since my goal was to find someone to kill, I ruled out anyone who had children or a partner with them. Wedding rings were another tell-tale sign.
So maybe once a weekend, I would find someone who fit my criteria, at which point I would follow them home and note their address. From there, it became incredibly easy to investigate a little bit more; most people have normal work hours, meaning I could spend afternoons going through their mail or looking around in their house. I repeated this with several people (and had one close call), but for varying reasons I didn’t really feel satisfied enough with them to kill any of them.
I started getting a bit impatient and thought that I might just settle for killing the man named Devon, even though I didn’t really want to kill someone wealthy. But then, I came across someone new - someone who just, felt perfect. The feeling only strengthened as I investigated her further, and I knew that she would be the one for me to kill.
A young-looking woman I met at the grocery store, as per usual. She was doing some light shopping with a basket. Her hair was wavy and dark brown, sitting inelegantly on her slumped shoulders and surrounding her tired-looking face. Her bare fingers told me she might be single, but beyond that, my gut was almost certain of it. This woman just seemed so…plain, really. I guess I felt a greater acuity for the personal lives of strangers ever since I started my people-watching. But the way she carried herself, I just got the feeling that if she suddenly died, nobody would be around to miss her. Of course, I still wanted to investigate her a bit.
I followed my usual routine of checking out her place during her work hours. I learned immediately from her mail that her name is Linda Watson. Linda lived in a quiet apartment complex, her mailbox easily accessible right outside her door. Instead of quickly shuffling through it, I decided I could take her mail back to my dorm and return it before she was finished with work (she only lived about 15 minutes from me). I did some research and learned how to open and reseal the envelopes without damaging them, which took some technique along with a hair dryer, rubbing alcohol, and Q-tips.
This made it easy for me to learn a little more about her. Linda was a 33-year-old woman who worked for a small accounting firm - I’d rather not name the place outright. Her birthday was December 11th which, coincidentally, was approaching in a couple weeks. I also managed to find a bank statement that gave me a nice look into how she’s been spending her past month. It was at this point I realized that my assessment of Linda Watson as an extremely plain woman was pretty spot-on, because there was absolutely nothing interesting on the list. A trip to Old Navy, a bunch of Starbucks, something about $40 from Amazon - no restaurants, no movies, nothing that would really imply she was spending any time socializing. That aside, I also found a cooking magazine, so I guess she was into cooking.
Apartments are harder to break into than suburban homes, because there are fewer doors and windows. Every time I got Linda’s mail, I would check the front door and the windows in the back, but they were always locked. This was a bit frustrating because I was really interested in getting into her house. So, I came up with a sort of plan that I thought would be fun, even if it didn’t work.
Last Saturday, I visited Linda Watson’s apartment complex as I would on weekdays. The difference is that this time, I wanted her to be home. I thought it would be interesting to have a conversation with her. If I got lucky, I could take advantage of the situation to discreetly unlock a window from the inside. So, I walked up to her door wearing nothing warmer than a light sweatshirt, and knocked. The adrenaline rush was crazy. I was afraid I might screw something up.
The door opened, and in front of me stood Linda Watson, exactly as I remembered her from the grocery store. It was at that moment, making eye contact for the first time, that I realized I was running the risk of beginning to care about this person. As selfish as it is, I couldn’t kill a person I cared about, even if it’s a 33-year-old woman standing in a doorway with a slightly perplexed look on her face, giving me a reserved “Hello.”
Arms crossed from the cold, I shyly returned Linda’s greeting. I explained that I was walking my dog near the woodsy area behind the back of her apartment, and that he had gotten away. I had been looking for my dog for an hour and was wondering if Linda may have seen him roaming about. Of course, Linda sympathetically apologized for the situation and that she couldn’t be of use to me, but that she would keep an eye out. I wore a defeated expression in response, apologizing in return for troubling her.
It somehow went exactly as I had hoped - Linda invited me inside to warm up a bit with some coffee. I outwardly hesitated before accepting her offer, although on the inside I wanted to jump through the door and hug her for cooperating so well. And that’s how Linda Watson ended up with a 19-year-old girl next to her on the couch - who knows if it was just a nice gesture or if she really has no better way to spend her Saturdays than talking to some kid she just met (who happens to be interested in killing her).
Linda soon learned that my name is Maria (it’s not) and that I attend the nearby community college (I don’t). I was a little bit nervous that she would ask me too many questions because I didn’t have many answers prepared. I was able to steer the conversation toward her, and she was pretty happy to talk. I asked what she does, and she told me that she works for the accounting firm I already knew about, communicating with outside clients and keeping records. I told her I was pretty nervous about growing up. She told me to enjoy college and to make lots of friends because there’s less opportunity once you start working.
When I asked if she was married or anything, she laughed. Of course I knew she wasn’t married, but I wanted to hear more about her love life. She said that she doesn’t currently have a boyfriend (I guess she’s at least had boyfriends, but who knows how long ago). When I asked her about kids, she said she doesn’t want them until she gets a better job. On top of that, she told me that her family has a history of some genetic diseases such as arthritis and depression, which she is afraid to give to her kids.
It’s funny that she mentioned that because when I asked to use her bathroom, I noticed a tube of prescription pills on the sink. It was labelled duloxetine, which I looked up later and discovered that it is in fact an antidepressant. I had a joking thought that maybe by killing her I’d be doing her a favor, but quickly decided I was a terrible person for coming up with that.
The rest of the visit was pretty dull. We talked about food and some other mundane stuff before I eventually made an excuse to leave. I didn’t get the chance to unlock a window or anything like that, but I didn’t really feel the need to go through her apartment anymore. As early as the drive back to my dorm, I was already thinking about how I would best like to kill Linda Watson.
The choice was between effectiveness and fun. I decided to go with fun, because it would be way more satisfying to kind of dissect her as I killed her, rather than just getting it done and calling it a day. Fast-forward one week to December 13th - today, actually. Linda Watson turned 34 two days ago. I made a fun little wager with myself where if Linda was spending her birthday weekend alone, I would pay her a visit and kill her. If she was out or had company, I would stop by next week or something instead.
So this morning, I drove over to Lowe’s and bought an axe. Again, I expect you’re laughing, but that’s also kind of the point. An axe is so kind of cliche and a “movies” thing that I actually thought it would be the most fun. Swinging it at someone and everything, it’s a really entertaining image. They actually had a bunch of different axes, so I picked one that had a good weight but was still light enough for me to swing quickly.
The drive after getting the axe was when the adrenaline really picked up. All that kept going through my mind on the way over was “Wow, I’m really doing this.” Not in a bad way, just like a surprised this is real life sort of thing. I also got this strange rush of recollections of the time I spent with Linda. It was like my life was flashing before my eyes, except it was just the rather mundane hour I spent with Linda - like snippets of our conversations, the sound of her laugh, her facial expressions and stuff.
I also wondered to myself what the crazy serial killers would be feeling at a time like this - schizophrenic delusions? Sexual buildup? I have no idea, but what I felt was kind of like ridiculously alert and numb in the senses at the same time, however that’s possible.
Before getting out of the car, I had the sense to stuff the axe into my backpack to look a little less ridiculous walking across the parking lot. The handle was sticking out, but that didn’t really matter. At that point my heart was pounding so hard I could feel my throat throbbing. I tried controlling my breath, but it’s really hard to not breathe fast when your heart is pounding like that.
I reached Linda Watson’s door and quietly put my ear to it after setting down my backpack. I heard a voice that wasn’t hers - company? No, it was just the TV, mixed with her occasional tapping footsteps behind the door. I actually kept my ear there for a really freaking long time, because I wanted to make absolutely sure nobody was over. Probably 10 minutes of that and a lot of reassuring myself convinced me.
I quietly opened my backpack zipper and held the axe in my hands. My fiercely shaking hands. What the hell was this kind of reaction that my body was making? I told my body to shut up, that it’s no big deal, but of course it wouldn’t listen. It was actually bizarre how much my hands were shaking. It must be the adrenaline buildup. I rolled my eyes at myself and got my hand to rest on the doorknob. If it’s locked, I’ll knock, it’ll be basically the same. I took a deep breath and forced my muscles into action.
I swiftly turned the doorknob. Not locked. In one movement, I opened up the door and slipped inside. Linda Watson, just a few steps away into the kitchen. I see - she was in the middle of cooking. She immediately jumped and turned around, startled. I expected that. Quickly, I let go of the doorknob and adjusted the axe into both hands. In the following split second, I realized that she would probably start to make a lot of noise. Looking back, I’m an idiot for not considering that. Just as Linda’s mouth opened to speak - maybe even started speaking - I forcefully swung my axe into the side of her head.
But, my axe was facing backwards. I hit her with the blunt end of the blade. I actually did this on purpose, because in that split second I somehow decided that it would be the way to keep her noise to a minimum. It actually worked. I felt barely any resistance in the swing as I collided with her head, knocking it clean aside. Linda’s half-formed syllable came out as a kind of weird grunt - a noisy exhalation is probably the best I could describe it. That happened at the same time as her head smacked into the cabinet from the force, and she fell backwards without any ability to keep her balance. I didn’t hesitate at all to keep swinging at her while she was half lying down on the ground, this time my axe facing the right way. I didn’t really know where to swing, so I kind of just started hacking at her collarbone area and chest. It didn’t feel like the axe was going too deep, but there was a nice “thunk” sort of sound every time the axe embedded into her. I even felt the soft sinking sensation ripple into my hands, like the axe was a kind of physical extension of my sense of touch.
On a whim, I swung once at her throat, but most of the swing actually missed and I hit the floor by accident, causing a loud, dull whack to resonate through the apartment. I didn’t have time to think about it. I swung again with better aim and got a more centered hit, feeling the bone or cartilage or whatever is in there, so I must have split it open. Right after that, I decided to swing at her face, and I got this diagonal cut along her nose and mouth, which felt pretty good so I did it once more.
I finally briefly stopped to survey the damage. Linda was bleeding ridiculously. The blood was kind of coming out in waves, in sync with her beating heart, probably. It was pooling all around her and riding along the cracks between the tiles. Her light blue shirt was all torn up and stained dark, kind of mixed with a fleshy mess around her chest. It was all just glistening red. Her face wasn’t much better, covered in dripping red at this point, and her lip was kind of hanging off, revealing red-stained teeth in a really weird way, like a zombie or something.
Linda wasn’t dead, though. Her limbs were kind of weakly, aimlessly trying to move while she was stuck on her back. More than anything, she reminded me of a bug that you crush but it still pitifully moves its legs around before it dies completely. That’s basically what she was doing. But I didn’t know how long it would take for her to die, or what kind of condition she was in. I ended up grabbing a big knife that was on the counter that she was using to cut up meat. Trying to step around the blood, I reached down and carved into the upper half of her neck, trying to sort of saw it from the left side to the right. It was a little awkward because the area was so soft and squished around the knife as I was cutting. But the sensation was completely different from the axe. It actually felt like I was cutting a tough piece of raw meat (which I guess technically, I was).
The blood started pouring out, and I hoped that I severed the most major arteries in there. It must have worked, because after a moment Linda’s limb movements kind of just had the strength drained from them, soon resting still on the floor. I took a few seconds to catch my breath. No time to stick around and think about the experience. I shook the knife blade through a dirty pan in the sink to clean off the blood, then threw the knife into my backpack. I did the same with the axe. I also took her laptop that was sitting on the counter. It had some recipe open for veal and mushrooms. I didn’t really take the laptop to use it, since I have a perfectly good one myself that I got for college. I just wanted to look through it for fun.
I finally went outside and closed the door behind me. I got some blood on my sweater and jeans. But funnily enough, I actually anticipated that so I wore dark colors.
The drive back to my dorm was just a constant replaying of the experience in my head. I guess that’s still kind of happening even now, actually. But it felt pretty nice. Linda Watson is dead. I kind of let the weight of that sink in. The sensation of having completely removed a human life from existence. It’s crazy. I don’t know how else to describe it.
Anyway, I threw the axe and knife into a dumpster on campus, which I think is picked up every Monday, so they’ll be gone by then. My roommate goes home on the weekends, so I have the dorm to myself today. It gave me the chance to go through Linda’s website history. I was right in thinking that’s where her deepest secrets would lie.
There was actually a lot of dirty stuff, like the names of websites for porn videos and stories and things like that. Same with her searches. A lot of the websites were boring, like cooking websites and recipes, and game websites like Bejeweled and stuff. I eventually got to the “one week ago” section of her history, and it gave me a chill.
There were a whole bunch of searches like “methods of suicide”, “how to tie a noose”, “dangerous household chemicals”, “carbon monoxide poisoning” - like a lot of them. She was probably ready to write a book on suicide after all the research she did. So I guess Linda was contemplating suicide. I wonder if it was influenced by her depression.
The irony is actually striking. Maybe Linda was going to die anyway. Or maybe she couldn’t find the courage to do it. If that were the case, I almost literally gave her a birthday present by killing her. That’s actually really comical in a messed-up way, and it leaves a weird taste in my mouth. The part I don’t get is that I didn’t see any of those searches up until the “one week ago” section, nothing more recent than that.
I ended up throwing the laptop in the dumpster with the other stuff. It’s been a few hours since then, so I’ve had some time to calmly think about everything. Like I said, it was pretty satisfying and I’m glad I finally got around to it. I feel like I can finally cross it off my bucket list, or like I’m tying loose ends with myself. This is probably the first and last time I’ll write the name Linda Watson - it’s back to living a normal college life, except I might do some people-watching every now and then because it’s definitely fun and interesting.
But I’ll always wonder how many people there are like me. I’m sure there has to be a lot, because there is just nothing strange about it to me, being curious about killing someone. Sadly, it’s something that people can’t exactly just talk about, so I guess I’ll never know. I’m sure that anyone would just lie about it even if you asked them. But you can’t help but wonder if that person in the grocery store, who stares at you as you pass by, might be considering what it would be like to kill you. If I could, I would tell them all about it, so they could decide for themselves. But who knows, maybe I got lucky, and that person is you. I actually really, really hope so.
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2023.03.31 16:51 OOFBOSS Preventing worsening of osteoarthritis in the future?
I am 21M and has most of my lateral meniscus taken out 10 years ago. Because of this, I currently have mild osteoarthritis but with no symptoms currently. I been having pain but it turns out it was just grade 1 chondromalacia so he is sending me to PT for that.
Do y’all think it can prevent more damage to the osteoarthritis by doing KOT? The chondromalacia is caused by weak glutes and over dominate quads so I am gonna work on that first so fix that muscle imbalance. But after the pain is gone, I still wanna live an active life.
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2023.03.31 16:47 Zorubark To think we have more hype than even Demon Slayer-
2023.03.31 16:46 lalas09 Legs pain, my evolution.
Hello, I just want to tell my story a bit in case someone coincides and has recovered or can be of help: (sorry for my English, it is not my mother tongue)
43 years old, healthy, athletic(I have done several marathons, half iron man, 100km of cross-country skiing...) and never before any serious illness or medication.
Infected in Nov 2022. Initial symptoms: - Leg muscles sore 24/7 - Left arm with something neurological (no pain) - White tongue (no pain) - Conjunctivitis
Evolution of the first 2 months: - All kinds of tests, which surely sounds familiar to you when you read it, and everything goes well. Many blood tests, electromyograms, x-rays, MRIs, ultrasounds, etc... All good. - Some doctors tell me that EBV has reactivated and others have not. It is not clear. I do not think so. - There were a few weeks that I couldn't even bear my own weight (very scared) - The muscular pain in the legs became neurological pain (24/7) and is concentrated in the area of the knees and lower part of the calves. Sleeping becomes complicated. - The tongue remains white - I get red dots all over my body, like a skin rash (chest, face, legs, feet...) (according to what I read, it could be histaminosis). - I am positive in SIBO, but I don't have any problems with my stomach. I have no pain and I poop well.
Month 3 and 4: -I start a gluten-free diet, dairy-free and low in histamine, which greatly reduces skin rash, but does not eliminate it. I still have redness in areas of the body but much less. - The initial severe weakness is gone and I can now stand up, but I can't walk well, or go up and down stairs, since the calf muscle hurts when using it. I have to walk like a robot. - I treat myself for 14 days for EBV with Valtrex (valaciclovir). - Thank God, Valtrex took away the neurological pain in my legs, but it did not take away other types of burning or muscular pain. - I can start to walk normally and go up and down stairs without pain in the quadriceps. - I still have pain in my legs 24/7 but they are not neurological. - The neurological thing in my left arm has gone. - At the end of Feb I start to walk more.
Month 5 at today:
- I start taking Duloxetine (30mg) and after 2 days the pain in my legs subsides. After 7 days, I go up to 60mg. My doctor's protocol so prescribes it.
- I don't know if it's the improvement in pain or the duloxetine, but psychologically I improved a lot, since I cried a lot and felt depressed and now I'm much better in that regard.
- The redness is still there but less. My face is always redder.
- Duloxetine makes me yawn a lot, and it's a very unpleasant feeling, but I prefer that to leg pain.
- The pain has subsided, but I have a feeling of heaviness and numbness in my legs, which I notice above all when I wake up, as if having been lying down for so many hours had that effect.
- I try to go up and down several floors and I do it without problems. I don't want to force myself more.
- do ultrasounds on my feet to see if the blood is getting well: OK
- do echo-doppler in my legs to see if there are clots: OK
I have tried every supplement out there and some alternative therapies like ozone injection and acupuncture. I think the ozone hasn't done anything, and the acupuncture can be helped.
I have gone from walking 90,000 steps in January to 278,000 this March.
I've cried a lot, but I think I'm on the right track. I see that I am improving little by little. In my case, I think it's something neuropathic that time will recover. In my left arm it has already recovered.
For me, on a psychological level, duloxetine has been a great help, since it overwhelmed me until I was left alone with my son or the mere fact of having to take my dog for a walk made me panic. And now I take my eldest son to and from school every day, I take my dog out and we walk about 10,000 steps every day.(5000 morning - 5000 afternoon) I even went to a theater performance at school that months ago I would not have gone.
I still feel sad if my legs hurt.
I think I'm at 70% when at first I think that the covid left me at 20-30%. I'm far from my old self, but I think I'm headed in the right direction. Time will tell if I recover or not.
Best recovery wishes to all
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2023.03.31 16:37 DamThatRiver22 [New] Silence Before the Storm - V: The Dead Eyes of Eternity [Album Release Thread]
Silence Before the Storm Location:
Laramie, Wyoming, USA Style:
Melodic metalcore/groove/melodeath FFO:
Old Unearth, Heaven Shall Burn, Chimaira, old August Burns Red, Arch Enemy Spotify Bandcamp Apple Music Youtube Tracklisting:
|Track ||Title ||Length |
|1 ||In The Shadow of Their Lies ||4:04 |
|2 ||We All Burn the Same ||4:32 |
|3 ||Father Time ||3:39 |
|4 ||An Ocean of Agony ||4:08 |
|5 ||Silent Night ||4:00 |
|6 ||Someone Else's War ||5:10 |
|7 ||Forever Cannot Wait ||4:10 |
|8 ||Darkness ||3:07 |
|9 ||End of the Line ||4:28 |
|10 ||Dead Eyes [Instrumental] ||5:12 |
| ||Total Runtime ||42:35 |
Note: What's up guys, Matthew Brammer from SBtS here. Once again I want to thank the mods and the community for their support over the last few years. I really hope you guys dig this shit! I tried a few new things while still sticking to the formula of what I'm good at and what SBtS does, and I honestly think that while I may (or may not) have written better individual songs
in the past on occasion, this is probably my best album
front to back by far.
Anyway...I always get super paranoid and nervous with every release, but you guys have always been super positive and reassuring and I've always been thankful for that. I've almost stopped making music and hung 'em up a few times over the last couple of years, and the encouragement from communities such as this is what keeps me rolling sometimes.
As always, I pretty much live on Reddit, so I'll be around to answer any questions you guys have at all about the album, or about me, or about music in general.
Also, if you haven't yet, check out my new metallic hardcore/beatdown project Six Below Zero
. Those of you who are into more hardcore-leaning metalcore/beatdown such as early Hatebreed, Throwdown, early The Acacia Strain, etc. may enjoy it. And of course, most of you know my deathcore project Breath of Sindragosa
as well (old-school melodic deathcore but with symphonic, acoustic, and piano moments).
Cheers and thanks again for the support over the years.
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2023.03.31 16:34 Kamohoaliii 2nd start as a goalie, felt better but got injured by guy sliding onto me
I had my 2nd start as a goalie yesterday and felt much better than on my first start. I was much wiser about spending my energy during both warmups and during the game, and this time I never felt gassed.
Unfortunately, about 8 minutes from the end of the game a guy that I guess isn't great at stopping crashed into me inside my crease while I was in the butterfly (had just stopped a shot) and I felt a pang of pain on my right inner thigh. As much as I tried to correct my position at the time of impact, the butterfly really leaves you very vulnerable during a cash. Today my inner thigh is bruised and still hurts, though not as much as yesterday. I suspect I got a strain on the abductor muscle, so that wasn't great.
Anyway, you can file this one under the rant category. If you can't stop well, please don't approach the crease in a dangerous way. What seems like a regular crash to you can really hurt a goalie.
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2023.03.31 16:28 vites70 [For Sale] A few additions; Supergrass, Kenny Burrell, Johnny Cash, Soundtracks: Vanilla Sky, CBGB & more, Kasabian, Foals, The Coral, Doves, Paul Weller, The Animals, Fat Mattress, David Gilmour, The Doors, Echo & The Bunnymen, America, Neil Young, Alice Cooper & more
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2023.03.31 15:58 blueandredtangerine Daily Song Discussion #201: Brothel Creeper
Inspired by u/WakeMeU
, i decided to do this on this sub. Full credit goes to them
This is the ninth track from Xiu Xiu's sixteenth album and twentieth project "Ignore Grief". What do you think of this song? How do you think it compares to the rest of the discography? How would you rate it out of 10 (decimals allowed). The song The lyrics
SUGGESTED SCALE: 1-4: Not good. Regularly skip. 5: Its ok, but i might have to be in the right mood to listen to it. 6: Slightly better than average. I wont skip it, but i wouldnt choose to put it on. 7: This is a good song. I enjoy it quite a bit. 8-9: Really enjoyable songs. I rank them pretty high overall. 10: Masterpiece, magnum opus or similar terminology.
Result of the rankings: Knife Play
- 8.3 Chapel of the Chimes
- 8.5 A Promise
- 9 Fabulous Muscles
- 9.2 La Forêt
- 8.8 Tu Mi Piaci
- 8.3 The Air Force
- 8.7 Women As Lovers
- 8.2 Dear God, I Hate Myself
- 8.7 Always
- 8.7 Nina
- 9.2 Angel Guts: Red Classroom
- 8.5 Unclouded Sky
- 8.2 Plays the Music of Twin Peaks
- 9.3 Forget
- 9.1 Girl With Basket Of Fruit
- 9.3 OH NO
The Real Chaos Cha Cha Cha - 9.3
666 Photos of Nothing - 8.3
Esquerita, Little Richard - 9.6
Maybae Baeby - 8.8
Tarsier, Tarsier, Tarsier, Tarsier - 9.3
Pahrump - 8.4
Border Factory - 9.3
Dracula Parrot, Moon Moth - 8.3
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2023.03.31 15:56 WealthyJester98 Finally formed Rome again after 3 years. Roma invicta!
2023.03.31 15:52 LegendsofLost The Dangers In My Heart at #9 for Top 10 Most Anticipated Anime Of The Season Spring 2023 [via Anime Corner]
2023.03.31 15:39 LegendsofLost Oshi No Ko at #1 for Top 10 Most Anticipated Anime Of The Spring and 2023 Season (via Anime Trending)
2023.03.31 15:37 Liliz22 Probiotics... Help please
Hi guys, What do you guys think of this strain of probiotics to treat sibo. it was highly recommended by a professional but not sure it's the right thing to do. Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks
Main symptoms: Painful bloating 24/7 Swelling Indigestion Malbsorption Weight loss Stomach as hard as a rock
(Streptococcus thermophilus, Bifidobacterium lactis, Lactobacillus acidophlillus, Lactobacillus rhamnosus, Lactobacillus casei, Lactobacillus bulgaricus, Bifidobacterium bifidum, Bifidobacterium infantis, Bifidobacterium lactis.) 50 mg Alga espirulina (Spirulina platensis) 60% proteínas (planta) 50 mg Extracto seco de Reishi (Ganoderma lucidum) 50 % polisacáridos (fruto) 50 mg Extracto seco de Shiitake (Lentinula edodes) 10 % polisacáridos (fruto) 50 mg Extracto seco de Agáricus (Agaricus bisporus) 10 % polisacáridos (fruto) 10 mg Lactobacillus reuteri (aportando 500 millones de células vivas)
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2023.03.31 15:36 LegendsofLost Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch From Mercury Season 2 at #4 for Top 10 Most Anticipated Anime Of The Spring and 2023 Season (via Anime Trending)
2023.03.31 15:35 Csherman92 Don't Give Up. You are not crazy.
Hi friends. I hope you are doing well. I wanted to add my own experiences with chronic daily headaches/migraines. I have mixed tension migraines, where my tension headaches get so bad they evolve into migraines. The whole throwing up and dark room thing. My chronic daily headaches were tension headaches/migraines.
TLDR: Guys don't stop investigating your chronic daily headaches. Your body is telling you something is wrong. And once you discover the cause, hopefully you can be treated for that issue and the headaches will subside. I was gaslit by doctors for years saying that even though it wasn't normal, I seemed like a healthy enough person. If anyone wants to chat with me, please message me. I'm happy to share.
I have had some form of daily headaches since I was 17 years old. I am 31 now. I would meet people, and they would ask me how I was. I would tell them , I have a headache. But I'm talking a headache all day, every day at probably a 6 or 7 pain level. Usually originating in my neck. While I saw doctors, my GP was just not invested in my headache problems and didn't seem to care. She sent me to a neurologist, who I liked, but then I moved away. He diagnosed me with cluster headaches. I will certainly still get cluster headaches if I am not sleeping. They feel different.
For those who don't know, cluster headaches are circadian rhythm headaches. Triggered by changes in the environment, often having to do with sleep, hello daylight savings time. It was during this time, I also tried Topamax and amitriptaline. Amitriptaline (tricyclic antidepressant) made me sleep late and topamax (anti-seizure med) made me slow. Like couldn't find words slow. I'm convinced it messed up my brain now, even more than 10 years in the future. I woke up with a headache and went to bed with one.
I got to a point with my first neurologist, that he didn't know what else to do with me because my headaches just weren't improving. I was feeling rather defeated. 2015. I had a CT scan, MRI, and an EEG. I had a lot of tests done over the years, but routine bloodwork wasn't one of them.
Following that, I would work with people, and they'd ask me how I was doing, and I would occasionally tell them about my headaches, but it got to be too much to explain. A lot of people told me "it wasn't normal," but I didn't know what to do because I had lived with it for so long. I saw several more neurologists and no one ever ordered bloodwork. I was in my 20's and they never ordered bloodwork. I was young and dumb and didn't know I needed it. But I wish I did. I didn't think anything would ever turn up either because any other test I had showed nothing wrong, so I just thought that that would show up empty too.
I had a headache all day, every day. When you have chronic daily headaches, you just kind of "get used to" it and function with it.
I finally move states, and see a DDS, a DENTIST who specialized in maxillofacial surgery and TMJ and migraine disorders. Didn't take my insurance but he was the first doc to ever listen to me. He gave me nerve blocks and I was paying OOP for them. He was recommended to me by coworker. He was a good doctor. I liked him a lot. He prescribed me muscle relaxers. It didn't do shit for the headache starting in my neck.
He sent me to a neurologist in the city at the headache clinic in Washington DC, a doctor his daughters see for migraines. I have to take the train to get there and wait 3 months. But I get on the schedule. He gets me started on Emgality and I am feeling so much better and a good amount of relief from my migraines. Now my daily headaches are from a 7 in pain to like a 3. The shot hurts, but it is worth it for the relief I am feeling.
I switch PCPs and she requires me to get bloodwork. She calls me the next day and I am thinking it's just the office and I forgot to fill out a form or something. It's the doctor and she tells me my platelet count is abnormally high. She wanted to repeat the test, because she thought it might be an error. So I do the test again, and platelet count still abnormally high. Like I'm talking over a million platelets when the most you are supposed to have is 400,000.
I see a hematologist, go through a whole song and dance with them, she diagnoses me with a bone marrow biopsy and tells me that she has seen what I have but not in someone so young. I was 27. She sends me up with another referral to the University of MD to see an even more specialized doctor. She gives me hydroxyurea, and I realize I am feeling better, but didn't put together why. She wanted me to use something called Pegasys. It didn't work for me and I found my headaches getting worse again.
I switch doctors again, because I am just fedup with their poor time management skills being there over 2 hours past my scheduled appointment. The new doctors want me to try pegasys again. And they always asked me if I was in any pain as they were checking my blood, I just let it slip that I had a bad headache. But again, I had been living it with it, so it wasn't really unusual to me.
They looked at my blood levels and said " your platelets are still high, even with this med." Then they got me back on hydroxyurea and I started feeling better. And we'd do a blood check and my platelets were normal and on Emgality & Hydrea, I feel awesome.
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2023.03.31 15:32 LegendsofLost Demon Slayer: Kimetsu No Yaiba Swordsmith Village Arc at #2 for Top 10 Most Anticipated Anime Of The Spring and 2023 Season (via Anime Trending)
2023.03.31 15:22 IllustriousFee9526 head feels weird
this has been going on for like a week now. i suffer with hypochondria/general anxiety so it’s really hard for me to decipher what’s in my head and what’s an actual problem that i should go to the doctor for. but if anyone has felt the same way please let me know! so basically it started out with me just kinda having brain fog, like i’d go through the day on auto pilot and at the end of the day i’d ask myself what did i even do the whole day? it kinda felt like time was just flying by and i wasn’t even present. then i would get random headaches like stabbing pains in random areas of my head along with strained neck muscles in the back of my head. and now, it almost feels like my head is too heavy for me to hold up. i get like random bursts of vertigo that last 1-2 seconds but it feels like i’m about to pass out or fall over and then it stops quickly. i also kind of feel like i’m just on a rocking boat sometimes. but the main thing i don’t like right now is this weird pressure it feels like it’s in my brain and someone is just lightly squeezing my head constantly. it’s really hard to focus at my job and not freak myself out because i’m not sure what this could be. my eyes and eyebrows also feel super heavy, along with fatigue. if anyone has gone through something similar let me know if it went away for you or if there’s anything i can do for it!
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