26 yo female in a relationship w/ male 31 yo dating for 5 years and living together for 4 years. For the first year I never thought our sex life was an issue, I lived with a roommate, and he had a shared house with his siblings and family. I have had several realtionships in the past & am very comfortable with my sexuality. I've also been in emotionally abusive realtionships and sometimes have a hard time defining boarders ,& what is abusive behavior. I've noticed I staw with men past the relationship 's expiration date typically, but also have a hard time understanding what is my fault and what is that other person's fault. About a year-year and a half agoy partner of 4-5 years became very distant sexually. I tried communicating, advising of trying new positions and environments because I was board of havimg sex in the same spot, only on the weekends at before bed but nothing changed for at least a year. I made several attempts to be romantic & was denied, now I have a hard time I inicoating romantic gestures and sexual attempts. I've learned to please my self but I feel like this is not healthy. He says he is not very sexually active/motivated before we started dating and kept blaming our environment, or that he wasn't feeling well. The attempts that I made that got rejected really hurt me to the point where I would rather just please my self. Am I in a relationship I need to leave? Is he cheating? Our communication is terrible. I tell him how I feel and it doesn't matter. My words are reached with his and how he feels. We live together and share everything. Is he cheating, gay, not into me, or am I the issue? Thank you in advance for any advice.

I was busy driving along the highway at 2 AM when my stomach got the rumblies. I realized there was a McDonald's nearby off in an isolated area with no other buildings near it. I knew this would be a reputable place to eat so I went in. I ordered a 20 piece Chicken McNugget and a Big Mac. The cashier said "OK, I don't know why you're up this late, but we operate 24/7 so fuck it I guess." Good enough for me!
I told him that I would be going to the McPlayPlace. The cashier looked at me weird and he warned me about it being dangerous. I don't give a shit! I want to go around and jack off in the slides! I entered the PlayPlace but then realized that the door locked in behind me! Of course, I wasn't scared. Things close in on me all the time! Like my taxes.
However, I realized that the door had a mind of its own. I tried to bust my way out but it pushed me back! Then I started to hear some faint piano playing. I looked behind and saw a man with a huge crescent moon for a head playing a piano. It was Mac Tonight! But this Mac was angry Tonight, as he stares at me with sharp hyper-realistic teeth.
"Y'know, customer. Before I entered the fast food biz, my name was 'Mac the Knife'..."
He pulled out his knife and said "This is your last DINNAH, jack!" And he chased me throughout the Playplace. I had to climb up the slide and threw my shoes off at him to knock him out. It only made him faster! I then went to the ball pit and hid in there, only for Mac to stab the nearby balls around me, and I shit my pants in FEAR like in the title! He came running to me so I went to a game kiosk and started beating him across the head with a GameCube controller. His knife started to slip from his fingers, so I stabbed that motherfucker into one of my shoes and bludgeoned him further with my newly created weapon. I barged through the door and ran out with my meal.
Entering my car, I opened the bag and found the most horrifying thing of all...
My food went cold! Fuck, now I have to order again!

I got this amazing size 15 Cartier Love Bracelet with vvs natural diamonds in 18k Rose gold just the other day Ms Chen .To my utter dismay it’s smaller than I thought it would be . It’s brand new in bag and never used !
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My pics , video and pop : https://imgur.com/a/Ioz5rFP (See how pretty this is )😍✨🙌🏽
I originally got it for close to $2800 including wise fee & duties and waited for over a month which is her usual turn around time for production . I am willing to sell for $2700 + shipping and ship immediately and you will get it in couple of days .You will inturn save the transfer fees , long waiting time and all the communication hassle.
payment through PayPal.
This piece in auth retails for around $11k and this is an exact 1:1 replica with solid 18k gold and diamonds with VVS clarity (both tested) . Also has all the right engravings , hence saving you over $8k. Ms Chen is the number one replica jewelry maker for Cartier and the longevity of the pieces are fully guaranteed exactly like the authentic piece.

So - background:
I graduated 11 months ago with a BS in IT. I did have a desktop support sort of internship at a small firm where my biggest project was running around installing Windows Admin Center on the endpoints there to collect CPU/RAM statistics (was even a little bit tricky, had to do a powershell command on some systems that didn't want to play nice with it). Other then that I basically replaced keyboards, dealt with end users, changes ink cartridges, and did some phone VOIP zoom provisioning. I tried to learn proper scripting/coding at this time but I think it being an internship sort of depressed me.
My first gig out of college was a Data Center Technician gig at a start up cloud services provider. I ended up carrying literal tool bags and well - was lifting systems more than a third of my weight racking and stacking and building DCs endlessly. I did learn a lot about the network topography there (spine/leaf config for switches, what an EDGE network was, diff types of cabling like MTP, how OOB worked, ) and learned some basic troubleshooting (pinging, traceroute, etc) and did some some bash scripting even and built myself some tools for easy SSH access to grab stuff like MAC address info, automating pinging from IPs listed in a file, checking how many GPUs were still working, etc. I also did the patch panel manual work, running cables both ethernet and fiber, etc. This job didn't last because It was sort of physically killing me - lol.
My second gig was in mainframes/enterprise servers doing HP NonStop/Tandem. A whole bunch of FTP and command line interface stuff was being done in this role, and that linux/bash background I had actually helped a bit. Problem with this job was that it was quite literally a dead end job. I got really frustrated with finding normal IT work and kept getting harrassed by recruiters coming to me with posting demanding 25 years experience (despite me being 25 years old... lmao). I basically ran command line jobs and did tedious tasks in this role. During this time I get my Certified in Cybersecurity certification from ISC2. I also started my CCNA studies but ended up stopping because I had a lot of interviews and it made it really difficult to focus. I will be returning to this soon
I am now on my third gig. Junior Network/System Admin - and I start monday. I have been doing the Windows Server Admin 2019 course on udemy and I plan on finishing it this week. I then plan on doing a Udemy course on specifically AD, finishing up my CCNA, then DNS, and then DHCP to really get a solid foundation on that stuff. Hopefully I can bang out AWS Cloud Practicioner and Azure Fundamentals.
Do you guys have any advice regarding studying or career stuff? I have been checking out the wiki and spending time here and I am starting to at least understand *some* of the questions asked here (a lot seem to be a bit over my head). The office I am going to be supporting is about 80 users and 100+ endpoints. I would be ofc under a normal/non junior sys admin. There is formal training but I am really trying to not just rely on that and really push myself.
The job entails AD/Hyper-V/DHCP/DNS duties as well as end user stuff.

hi everyone, my mom passed away unexpectedly in february of this year after battling with multiple chronic illnesses, chrons being one. she had a very severe case— she gained over 100 lbs in a year due to chrons (instead of losing weight) and was recommended for a colectomy, which she never went through with. she also had a rare occurrence where she had ulcerative colitis as well. the chrons took a very big toll on her health and she had an ostomy bag for about 2-3 years before she passed. about a month after her passing, i had to go through her phone to arrange her finances. i saw on google that she had looked up why her ostomy bag output was bright green a day before she died. there were no real results after her search, and unfortunately the county coroner’s office did not perform an autopsy so we do not know her cause of death. she was supposed to go to the hospital the next day when specialists would have been there but she didn’t make it until then. does anyone know why her output would be such an abnormal color? i’m not saying it was the sole reason as to how she passed, she was also constantly fainting and throwing up the week before her passing. i just wanted to post in this community to see if anyone has experienced that kind of abnormal colored output/would know what would cause that to happen. thank you all!

I have went to the shop and then straight back to bed. I have neglected my whole life and I always have. I get some control and then I always resort to this. It genuinely feels like someone is sitting on me and I can't move.
There's nothing to get up for. Like absolutely nothing. Leaving the house for a walk is like 10/10 difficult level for me. There's nothing to do and there's nothing I want to do. I go to the toilet and pee. I was dragged from bed to take a bath last night. I am sooooo weak I have no energy at all like absolutely zero. I haven't been downstairs in like 4 days. My days revolve around being in bed and I feel soooooo tired.
I've been to doctor many of times for it and been diagnosed with major depression or something but didn't get any help and I have been about 5 times for the same thing throughout the years.

I booked a flight from Istanbul arriving at South Terminal Gatwick at 10:05 am April 9 with Turkish Airlines
I have a flight going to Toronto from Gatwick which departs at 12:40 pm April 9 North Terminal with Air Transat.
Turkish Airlines might delay. I have 2hour 40 minutes to self transfer Air Transat closes gates an hour to departure.
I have a Canadian permanent residence card and just a Turkish visa stamped on my Nigerian passport.
I’m at a crossroad as I don’t know I don’t have a transit visa and don’t know how I will get one if I need. I live in Canada but I am in turkey now.
I have no checked bags just a carry on.
Alternatively I can try booking tickets with WizzAir that departs from Istanbul to Gatwick 7pm on April 8.
Meaning I have 17 hours to self transfer. I don’t have a Uk transit visa. I have just a Turkish visa stamped on my Nigerian passport and a Canadian permanent residence card.
Please help me, I have already spent 10,000usd buying tickets as I had problems departing from Toronto to Istanbul. This was all due to booking with a travel agency.
I am Just 18, barely have any money left and need to get back to Canada.

I got this amazing size 15 bracelet with diamonds in 18k Rose gold just the other day Ms Chen .To my utter dismay it’s smaller than I thought it would be . It’s brand new in bag and never used !
PSP images and video from Ms chen : https://imgur.com/a/r3l8aNJ
My pics , video and pop : https://imgur.com/a/Ioz5rFP (See how pretty this is )😍✨🙌🏽
I originally got it for close to $2800 including wise fee & duties and waited for over a month which is her usual turn around time for production . I am willing to sell for $2700 + shipping and ship immediately and you will get it in couple of days .You will inturn save the transfer fees , long waiting time and all the communication hassle.
payment through zelle / PayPal.

My depression ended up being autism. I wanted to share it here in case it resonates and helps anyone else.
I struggled with what was labeled depression since I was a teen. It never felt like professionals really looked into what caused my depression, they would just say it was odd I had struggled with it for so long because apparently for the majority of people with depression it is not chronic. I had heard usually in such cases it ends up being co-morbid with something else but there appeared to be no investigation into possible causes for me, just treatment that never fully worked.
So I struggled with this for over a decade and I’m now diagnosed with autism and most of the symptoms of depression I’ve come to realize were my autism (although for a period of time it did cause me to truly struggle with depression and medication did help me crawl out of that deeper pit.)
How did these symptoms get written off as symptoms of depression?
Often people with autism struggle with properly identifying what is going on inside. I knew I felt terrible and I couldn’t function, but I didn’t know why. This also meant I couldn’t explain to professionals well what was wrong since a person can’t explain what they don’t know.
Looking at it now something that went under the radar was this. To be diagnosed with depression it needs to go on for a prolonged period of time. In hindsight this didn’t accurately describe my experience. If I didn’t dread the day, I could start my days feeling okay, I could enjoy moments and have fun. As the day went on I would reach a point of feeling terrible and not being able to function and would spend the rest of the day trying to recover, often in bed and isolated and I often wouldn’t be able to recover until I slept. The cycle of the day was not properly realized so on paper because every day I ended up in bed struggling and feeling horrible I appeared to be struggling with ‘depression’. Also I struggled to get out of bed because my bed was a ‘nice’ sensory’ place and outside my bed was not. Sometimes I couldn’t bring myself to face the cold, loud sounds, and bright sunlight outside my bedroom. I recognize NOW that is why it felt so terrible outside my bed/bedroom but I didn’t realize it then that was what why it felt so bad leaving it.
In hindsight and contemplating how some others have describe their depression I realize some describe never being able to enjoy anything, nothing brought them joy. This was not my experience because I often had things I could enjoy but I felt so terrible that things I enjoyed doing were not worth doing.
I also had a cycle with work that apparently many of people with autism share. Beginning a job and at first it is okay and then over time being able to function less and less until it reached a point where I had to quit for my own mental health. I would have to spend longer and longer each day recovering from work until there was no recovering, I just persistently felt terrible and horrible with no relief ever, of course like that it wouldn’t take long to lose all hope and not want to exist. Once I quit it was relief and it felt like it wouldn’t take too long to reach a place of feeling relatively okay. I often thought if only the world didn’t expect so much of me I could function fine. It was just the amount that the world demanded from me that would slowly drag me down into depression as I tried to accomplish what everyone else seemed to be able to do. Once I would recover enough I would then find a new job and it would start all over again. I hopped between different types of jobs thinking maybe I just hadn’t found the right one to fit me yet.
If any of this sounds like your experience, possible consider autism and learn more about it. I struggled my whole life with ‘depression’ and finally the last year I’ve found real relief from these symptoms for the first time and now received a professional diagnosis of autism this last month. That relief was brought by addressing and reducing sensory information from my environment that I couldn’t identify were causing how terrible I felt (as I said people with autism often struggle with not being able to properly assess what is going on inside).

Let’s look at 3 scenarios.
1-A player that does not want to spend any money at all to play the game. This player relies on gyms to fund their remote raiding.
2-A dedicated player remote raiding multiple a few times during the week. This player may place some Pokémon in gyms to off set costs of remote raiding but has pretty much decided they’ll spend some money.
3-A hardcore player that remote raids every single day. No issues with spending money to play the game.
Scenario 1 - The frugal player.
Current situation: This player works to get 50 coins a day and for the sake of this scenario we’ll say they are really good at it. So 6 out of 7 days they get 50 coins. That’s 300 coins, and for their hard work at taking gyms (or maybe a single gym they have a daily routine on) they get to purchase 3 remote raid passes (1 bundle) every week. This would likely get them,..2 legendaries weekly, as they are not guaranteed wins and some raids fail. At the end of the month,..they have 8 legendary Pokémon and spent zero dollars on coins.
New situation: This player now cannot buy a 3 raid bundle weekly. But they have 300 coins at the end of each week (basically 1,200 at the end of the month). So they have to make a decision. They could wait two weeks and get a 3 raid bundle, so 6 for the month. Or they could buy a single raid pass as soon as they have enough coin. This would take basically 4 days(200coins, 195 per pass). Either way, they should be able to get 6 raids in the month,..and probably walk away with 4 legendaries. One a week basically,..if they are taking gyms,..6 days a week.
End result…this player gets half of what they used to. But wait! They may get lucky and get a raid pass in their weekly research. I think it’s fair to say they get two in the month,…so now they are up to 6 for the month. So this player has spent no money on coins and lost out on 2 Pokémon from what they are used to getting in the month. Sounds good? Well keep in mind that they have to be physically able to go get those gyms (Sorry anybody out there with limited mobility) and let’s compare it to other player types.
Scenario 2: Current Situation: This player has some income. Doesn’t mind spending a little on the Pokémon habit. Some people smoke, some people do meth, this person plays Pokémon. Right now if they spend $10 bucks a week on coins they could get 4, 3 raid bundles. That’s pretty nice. So after the kids are in bed, after work, after homework, whatever, this person raids a bit. So for their $10 bucks they get to raid 12 times a week. They don’t have to take a gym. If it’s available they will, but it’s not a big deal. 12 raids a week,..that probably gets you 9ish legendaries (if they are only raiding legendaries, which they aren’t but we’ll say they are). At the end of the month they have 36 legendaries in their deck and $40 less in their wallet. However they like the game so not a big deal.
New Situation: So the Pokémon budget of $40 bucks a month got this player 4,800 coins ($10 for 1200 coins weekly). But yikes,…1200 coins used to get them 4 raid bundles for the week. Now they get 2 raid bundles for the week for a chance at 6 Pokémon weekly. We’ll say they walk away with 4 weekly. End of the month they are sitting at 16 legendaries,..+ 2 from research = 18 for the month. Half of what they had previously for the same $40 dollars.
Now this player is looking at other options. They are saying,..”damn I know I end up buying coins weekly,…maybe I should just drop $40 bucks straight up and get 5200 coins.” So now this player drops his $40 bucks and 5200 coins is going to get them 9 bundles for the month (with some change left over to start the next month). So 9 bundles is 27 passes. For $40 bucks. So we used to get 36 legendaries a months,..and now they are getting 27ish. Is that a big hit? I donno,..but it’s a hit.
Scenario 3: The BALLER. Current Situation: This player is dropping serious cash on the game. Let’s keep it kind of light though. They spend 100 bucks and get 14,500 coins. That’s 48 bundles. 144 passes. Basically 4-5 remote raids a day for 30 days. This person is probably walking away with 120 additions to their deck. $200 bucks a month,…240 legendary raids?? A month? 8-10 raids a day every day in a month. Hardcore man.
New situation: 14,500 coins is only going to get you 83ish raid passes now,..2-3 raids per day over 30 days. However now there is a 5 raid cap. So Let’s just keep it simple,…they have enough money to raid as much as they want,..but are capped at 5 a day, which is 150 remote raids in a 30 day month. Which gets them 140 catches? So they add 140,..but need to spend $100+ dollars doing so.
How does all this balance the game? Players that can afford to drop the money still greatly benefit over those who can’t.
If you don’t want to spend money to play it’s now harder for you to even get a legendary and you have LESS access to them.
If you are spending money on coins and passes,..and can afford it,…well you’re going to be rewarded by a min of 20 more legendary Pokémon a month than those poor players.
And if you are a high roller,…well you probably don’t really care because you can afford to pay to play the game.
It all reeks of taking advantage of people and players. They start you with a little taste of things,..get you hooked,…raise the prices,…reel you in.
Keep a close eye on event lengths in the future I have a suspicion that they’ll be just long enough to capitalize on FOMO, “I’m so close to a raid pass,…let me spend $10”.
Rant off. Lol sorry so long.

Hello everyone, I have dpdr since more than 6 years now, what I'm going to share is the most effective thing I found up to this day, what I'm going to share has been learned trough much suffering and I hope these things can help you to alleviate symptoms.

1. Accept There will be days where you don't even remember you have dpdr, there are days where it'll be really tough. Do not be scared about when those periods will happen, it has no purpose. Appreciate those brief moments of clear mind, think "Wow, this feels amazing, I'm grateful for this moment". Tough periods will always come, be prepared, when you see first signs maybe try to alleviate your work/study load, try to relax; no matter how many things you have to do, mental health comes first.
2. Focus This is a thing I've never saw online. When you are in those tough periods in order to alleviate the feeling do a simple thing: stop for a moment and try to focus with all your energy on what's in front of you. For example, find a bottle of water and unscrew the cap from the bottle, but do it like you are doing the most important exam of your life, pay attention to the sound, the feeling of touch, the water inside the bottle etc... And then take a sip :) This always help me in all situation, just use all the focus you have to watch your surroundings or feel your body. That's the most effective thing I found to this day.
3. Ignore it This is a bit hard and some mindfulness can help, everytime you get stuck into tough patterns like: "Oh now dpdr is hitting stron", "I feel like a robot", "who is controlling my body?" and so on, stop! Realise these thoughts are there, let them go, ignore them, think of something else or better: do point 2, this is the best situation do it.

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I think these are the most important things to my experience, hope they bring some value to you. Notice I did not mentioned exercise, everyone mentions it and it does indeed help, I think everyone should exercise but I understand that it's hard finding the willpower, try to do it at least once a week.
Exercise works because it relax your body, so even if you do not exercise try to relax, lean on the couch and appreciate it's softness and cozyness, listen some music, do what relaxes you.
Please notice: leaning in bed/couch torturing yourself by thinking how much you're miserable/focusing on dpdr symptoms does not mean relax, it's the opposite.
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I really hope everyone reading this can find relief by trying those methods, even if it's just for a second.
Peace

I booked a flight from Istanbul arriving at South Terminal Gatwick at 10:05 am April 9 with Turkish Airlines
I have a flight going to Toronto from Gatwick which departs at 12:40 pm April 9 North Terminal with Air Transat.
Turkish Airlines might delay. I have 2hour 40 minutes to self transfer Air Transat closes gates an hour to departure.
I have a Canadian permanent residence card and just a Turkish visa stamped on my Nigerian passport.
I’m at a crossroad as I don’t know I don’t have a transit visa and don’t know how I will get one if I need. I live in Canada but I am in turkey now.
I have no checked bags just a carry on.
Alternatively I can try booking tickets with WizzAir that departs from Istanbul to Gatwick 7pm on April 8.
Meaning I have 17 hours to self transfer. I don’t have a Uk transit visa. I have just a Turkish visa stamped on my Nigerian passport and a Canadian permanent residence card.
Please help me, I have already spent 10,000usd buying tickets as I had problems departing from Toronto to Istanbul. This was all due to booking with a travel agency.
I am Just 18, barely have any money left and need to get back to Canada.

Look, I’m basically at the end of my tether.
I can’t beat this addiction no matter what. I have a beautiful gf, she knows I struggle, she’s amazing. She’ll help. But instead, all I do is get off, and to findom mainly, all day. Free time? Staring at my phone in bed getting off. At work? Anywhere. I can’t trust myself. I’m feeling defeated after 6 years of trying to beat a porn and findom addiction. If anyone has best findom, I would love to know. It feels like my life has no real purpose. I can’t even engage in hobbies anymore, I have NO focus.
I need help and motivation, please. I want to beat this.

My uncle gave me a bed and i no longer need my old mattress. Ive just been using it as a living room bed. Its a year old and I would love to donate it to another student (please have a vehicle capable of taking it). Its foam. Plus I live in Costa Mesa.

26 yo female in a relationship w/ male 31 yo dating for 5 years and living together for 4 years. For the first year I never thought our sex life was an issue, I lived with a roommate, and he had a shared house with his siblings and family. I have had several realtionships in the past & am very comfortable with my sexuality. I've also been in emotionally abusive realtionships and sometimes have a hard time defining boarders ,& what is abusive behavior. I've noticed I staw with men past the relationship 's expiration date typically, but also have a hard time understanding what is my fault and what is that other person's fault. About a year-year and a half agoy partner of 4-5 years became very distant sexually. I tried communicating, advising of trying new positions and environments because I was board of havimg sex in the same spot, only on the weekends at before bed but nothing changed for at least a year. I made several attempts to be romantic & was denied, now I have a hard time I inicoating romantic gestures and sexual attempts. I've learned to please my self but I feel like this is not healthy. He says he is not very sexually active/motivated before we started dating and kept blaming our environment, or that he wasn't feeling well. The attempts that I made that got rejected really hurt me to the point where I would rather just please my self. Am I in a relationship I need to leave? Is he cheating? Our communication is terrible. I tell him how I feel and it doesn't matter. My words are reached with his and how he feels. We live together and share everything. Is he cheating, gay, not into me, or am I the issue? Thank you in advance for any advice.

If you could put short stories and random thought article on a print form like a newspaper, would it work? My thinking is that it compromises between the resurgence interest in books with short form entertainment of the new generation. Basically market cheap story print as a casual reading material for bed, toilet, and weekend relaxation. Also market it as an alternative to screen time, basically instead of browsing Reddit for personal stories and news, this reduces stress.

Had a great experience with a salesperson at a Saatva store near me today. He wrote down the "in store discount" for the model I liked along with his contact info. Well, I looked up the bed online half an hour later and it's $115 cheaper on the website. What's going on, is this just his commission? I understand salespeople have got to make a commission somewhere but is it really this obvious?

So… I want to know if I am alone in this. My parents/grandparents tried REALLY hard to create experiences for me when I was very young (like over 30+ years ago)- going to the county fair, an art museum, hikes, etc. Anything that was free/low cost they would try to bring me.
Every time I would be brought somewhere- I ALWAYS wanted some food at the place rather than the nothing my parents packed (I wish we had at least a brown bag- but my parents just didn’t do that- they just didn’t eat), and I always was desperate for things the gift shop/concert t-shirts, etc.
Now while I now, as an adult of 41 years of age, understand the reasons behind us not being able to purchase literally anything but the entrance fee to the event itself/not even that… I now just buy everything with wild abandon at events.
I can’t help myself- I don’t really make a lot of money- I don’t spend to the point where I can’t pay bills- but I often get caught up in the “experience” of something and throw down money like I’m Daddy Warbucks. $13 beers? Yes! A $40 band t-shirt? Hell yes! Dry ass chicken tenders with like 10 French fries for $15- why not?
Am I the only one who has an inner child that just goes bananas with this stuff- AND- when you actually think about it, realize it’s because it was always a “no” when you were a kid?

Hello,
Im currently looking for a new backpack to replace my greenroom136 rainmaker 27L. I like greenrooms quality materials (1000d cordura outside ,420d polyster inside) and after 2 years bag shows no signs of everyday wear. I was thinking about Osprey Tropos (2022 32l made of 210d honycomb nylon) because of "Airspeed" back, that is my main reason why im considering this bag, because in summer my back gets really hot and sweaty. but im really not sure about the longevity of this bag considering the materials of Osprey tropos,
could you recommend me another bag or give input about the new Tropos? Im from Europe so I might struggle with american made bags due to customs and such. Thanks
P.s sorry for this drafted text, im not native English.